Crazy In Like

I developed a crush on him (I'm withholding his name so it won't be so public. If you ask me, I'll tell you his name.) in between mid-October and early November. It was a full-on crush until January, when I told him how I felt about him and he rejected me. It's not me, it's him, he says. Whatever. Anyway, there wasn't any sense in me liking him anymore, but I keep thinking about him, thinking something could still happen between me and him. I'm very delusional. Anyway, I kept thinking about about things that I wanted to say back to him that day in January, but I couldn't. I had planned to tell him last night, but I didn't see any opportunity present itself. I feel sad and stupid at the same time. I just need closure before he leaves so I won't keep asking myself later on why I didn't talk to him about all this. At this point, I don't think I'll get it.